Gay Conversion Therapy: Bad, in Boy Erased
In 2004 at age 19 Garrard Conley entered
Love in Action, a Christian fundamentalist gay-conversion program, designed to
lead him away from acting on his homosexuality. Eventually he escaped, and
wrote about the horrors of the program in Boy Erased.
Conley’s memoir is steeped in the mental
gymnastics he needed to do to live in small-town Arkansas with his loving Baptist parents and
come to terms with his sexuality. The text is cerebral, and Conley does a good
job of guiding his reader through the conflicts between his upbringing and his
nature. When he struggles, contemplating his own suicide for example, the
narrative feels urgent and scary.
The actual events inside Love in Action are
sparse, and the majority of the book is dedicated to the inner struggle between
faith, family, and his gayness. The kick off point for Conley’s entering Love
in Action, his rape by a boy at his college and that boy’s subsequent outing of
Conley to his parents, is explored throughout the book. The book stands as not
only a send-up of what his religion demands, but also of what society demands
of a man who is sexually assaulted. Spoiler: a lot of what it demands is
silence.
Conley’s reciprocal love for his parents is
a main theme, and they become a steady point in Conley’s growth, despite their
initial disgust with their son’s sexuality. By the end, the three are heroes,
and hatred and denial of one’s true self turn out looking pretty bad.
Thanks to Jim Taber for
recommending Boy Erased.
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